Esther.Lew ; ♥

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

ytd night have a surpise by Bf.
he came down around 10plus just to take a look at me.
after my 10pm show i lie on my bed.
how i know i fall a sleep.
when i wake up Bf is not by my side.
he went home le.

didnt went school today.
wake up at 6am to eat medi.
have my temp check.
38.1
temp went up again.
sign.

temp check for afternoon.
35.9
???

just eaten medi.
feel dizzy.
going to sleep soon.
i guess so.

i feel weak now.
aarrgghh . . .

yes i know i m in fault too.
i didnt push the blame to you ONLY!
but see those post you have in the start.
you are simply pushing the blame to me.
thing's that you do and say are both different thing.
you say you need time to sot.
alright i give you time.
you are simply just angry about the pass.
but that is already pass.
no point to think it again.
after i have a bf.
you dont tell me i did not went out with you.
i spent my free time with you & tiong cliques.
is totally different when i together with my ex.
i really dont understand what you disappoint about.
i just wish after you finish sotting your thing we can sit down and talk.
whatever thing not happy just say out.
if we continue to say in post it will be endless.

you have your thoughts, i have my thoughts.
post cant show what you really thinking about.
it will only make more conflit.

at my weaker point i think alot.
i dont want to have conflit with her.
i dont want to lost a bestfriend.
i need her by my side when i m down.
i need her by my side when i m crazy.
i need her by my side when i m sick.
etc etc etc . . .

i m weak now.
this is the only thing i have in my mind.

Cherish; @ 1:31 PM