Esther.Lew ; ♥

Friday, September 11, 2009

firstly, i cant feel any love from my family anymore.
secondly, what my mum say is always right. and never thought of how i felt.
thirtly, the whole family knows that i smoke. thanks to my mum.

i m really speechless and upset.
her big mouth will never change.
whatever thing she know she will tell my aunt, uncle and grandparent.
both my aunt nag non-stop.
i really wanna quit smoking.
i know i been saying this seen starting of the year.
but can you guys just give me sometime?

is not funny that you all alway wont leave a space for me to sleep.
and want me to sleep with my aunt.
sometime i really feel very happy that you all are not at grandma house.
i will have my own bed.

batam trip you dont allow me to go.
i really dont know what to say.
what your reply is no mean no.
aarrgghh . . .

my ATM card.
i really wanna give up for asking it back to my wallet.
sick and tired of nagging after it.

i dont like to face sadness&stress.
everything in my mind will go blank.
the only thing i will do is
smoke and drink.
it will make me feel better after i m drunk.
i will sleep without thinking for the time been.
sign!

Cherish; @ 12:49 AM